Constant effort

The older I get the less I like religion and the more I gravitate towards spirituality and inner peace. Religion is something you learn a doctrine with laws, rules, and consequences. Spirituality is who your are, your morals, values, happiness. I have always feared religion and church after all I was raised in a Bible thumping, preacher yelling, going to hell if you misbehave church. God is much gentler and kinder than I always believed him to be. Unfortuanately it has taken me 40 yrs to figure that out. better late than never I guess.

So what I have I been doing to find that inner spiritual side of me…well not much but I’m getting there. I try to remain calm in situations that normally I would explode in such as my children’s deep desire to kill each other off over who had their foot on the couch cushion first. Or I am trying to be kind to those less fortunate, everybody has good in them right? Well most everyone, so it is an ongoing process which hopefully I will grow into over time. In the meantime I will continue to pray for patience and look at the positive side of things no matterhow bleak. I just hope I don’t explode first.